Second entry in moments! Haha. I just need somewhere to let my crazy ideas spill over to.

Studying really does get my creativity going-- my motivation to think of other things to do other than studying is high and so my aim to create distractions for myself is strong.

Despite not one to want to go to a club on a Friday night, I still really want a night out in the city. I love seeing the city at night with the lights of the skyscrapers on, contrasting the darkness of the sky. I would love to be out there, on a hill somewhere, with a DSLR (that I know how to use, not own) to just capture a few shots of the cityscape. The closest I've been to accomplishing this was earlier this school year when the class was on a boat that was circling the bay and we went under both bridges and got to see the cityscape from the sea. The view was beautiful. Sadly it was only a small minority of the class that got to see it...the rest was below deck. The draw of a dance floor with some alcohol was a bit to alluring I suppose. Hahaha.

Studying for exams have taken a feeling of sheer desperation. Studying is no longer for learning purposes. Studying is now for the hope of passing the exam tomorrow and not tanking this thousand dollar gamble of a degree. I wish I could say I am learning the material and am able to fully process it, but the sad reality is I don't have enough time or the mental ability. Perhaps with practice, the material will be retained better. But for now, it's cram, regurgitate, forget, and repeat.

This feeling of desperation is taking a major toll though. I wish for another way to approach this.

My study song of the moment: Good Life by OneRepublic. The song is such a contrast to the reality of my current life. Yes, this should be the prime of my life. I suppose by most standards, I should be out having fun and partying, but no. The way my life is going (along with my choices), makes this song the anti-anthem of my life. But the tune of carefree-ness and adventure is most definitely appealing right now. Anything but studying for multiple dreary exams right? :/