With time, what is initially unfamiliar becomes familiar...and I guess I am waiting for time to work. To actually be a professional student is such an odd feeling. With this role, I am suppose to be responsible, mature and respectable, but I don't feel like I've attained any of these qualities.
I feel a little ambivalent about this whole entire thing. This is what I've been working for the last four years, but now that I'm here, I guess some of the glitter has worn off and I'm wondering, how and what now? How do I approach this?
I guess it's self-doubt that is nagging at me right now. Sometimes, I still get the feeling I don't deserve to be here and that I lack the essential qualities to become the clinician I want to be. This lack of confidence and self-assurance is terrible. I need confidence and determination to reach my goals....
Most importantly though, I know I must not trap myself in a bubble where all I know is school and grades. That happened in college and it was awful. There is always much more to life. I must remember that. There is life outside of school.
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